Hello,

I am back once again.

I am going to give it another try at losing some weight. My main reason for this return is because I am going to start TTC again.

Unfortunately,

I have gained a whole lot of weight since I last posted. Why, oh why do I do this to myself, I will never know.

Anyway, I will be posting what I eat everyday, any exercise I get (which will be very little starting off with), any meds I am taking and of course any thoughts I may have for the day.

Tracy

I know it has been awhile since my last post, and you're probably thinking I didn't stick to my diet. Well, you're WRONG! I have just been too busy to post lately. I have stuck to my diet and have lost some weight. It has been a week and 2 days so far and I lost 5 pounds. I will be losing weight slower because I am TTC and have increased my calorie & carb intake compared to my last diet. Before, I was eating below 1500 calories and below 60 carbs. Now I am just staying below 1900 calories and below 125 carbs. Big change right? I still think with my size that I am, I will still lose weight eating like that, it will just be slower. I also think that would be more healthy since I am trying to get pregnant.

OK,

So I didn't stick to my last diet attempt. Any of you that have tried to diet in the past know how darn hard it is! But here I am again. My desire to get pregnant is what keeps me trying, hopefully I will stick with it for a few weeks this time. I will be happy to do it for 3 weeks and then take a short break again. When I weighed myself on monday, I had gained 3.5 pounds, which I don't think is too bad considering how long I have been off my diet and what I have been eating. I started on monday, I did go over my goal just a little, but that's ok. I have done pretty well today. I will start writing down my food intake tomorrow!

Well today has been so-so. I did eat 3 blueberry muffins-very high in carbs (about 30 each), but I haad to get rid of them before monday and I just couldn't bring myself to throwing them in the trash. It could have been worse.....chocolate cake, donuts, etc......

Other than that I have done ok. I may drink a cup of hot tea tonight, not sure yet. I am having a real bad day today, emotionally and mentally, the tea may help me calm down and relax. I have a killer pain in my neck, possibly from stress. My lower back is also killing me. Maybe I slept wrong.

I'm going to try to post on here everyday again, I tend to do better when I do. I hope that I am able to stick to my diet plans this coming week. I have to think of it as my only way to get pregnant, maybe that will help.

When I weighed myself this morning I was at 300 pounds, just 1.5 pounds higher than when I stopped my diet, so I am happy about that. I thought I was up about 2-3 pounds. When I think back to what I have been eating and drinking, I am very happy with where I am at now. I really haven't done terrible everyday, just haven't done well!

Wow,

have I been gone forever or what? I have been bad so I guess I didn't really want to enter my food journal.....so I just stayed away! I had a bad day yesterday and I am still not happy about it. I went to my new OB and she made comments like "It would be good if you could lose some weight before getting pregnant" and "I'm not in a hurry for you to get pregnant because of that". OK, we started TTC 2 years ago. I waited a year since I got pregnant the 1st time, 9 months since I misscarried the 2nd twin. How long does she think I have? I am not getting any younger and because of the PCOS, my chances are already lowered. I don't need age to lower my chances anymore! I am so pissed!!! I don't know what I am going to do. She did increase my metformin, which I am to increase slowly for the next month and a half. I was taking 500mg a day. she has me taking 500mg/2 times a day until this bottle is gone (about 11 more days) and then increasing to 500mg/3times a day on my next bottle. I already took clomid this month. I will need another prescription for it, if I don't get pregnant this time. What I think I will do is : if I don't get pregnant this month then I will continue with the meds for the next 2 months and try to lose as much weight as possible. After that, I will call and ask for the refill. I am hoping to lose at least 30 pounds in the 2 months. I know that is expecting a lot but I have been off my diet for a month now (only gained 2-3 pounds back) and I think I will lose a large amount the 1st week again. Last time I went off and then got back on, I lost 10 pounds the 1st week and 5 the next....that's half my goal just in 2 weeks, then I still have 6 weeks to lose another 15 pounds. I think it is possible. Now all I need to do is get my motivation pumped up enough to follow through. I feel cravings for sweets everyday now, so that is my biggest challenge. I'm not going to post my food diary until monday, that's my official "start" day!

Hello friends,

Well, I still have not got back on my diet. I went out to eat with my family twice this week, but I did only drink water so I did good on my drinks! Of course, since we went to buffets both times, I can't say the same about my eating! I will get back on track soon though. I haven't done too bad today. I haven't done great, but not too bad either. I have been sick at my stomach off and on today. I have this terrible need to drink Sprite when I feel sick at my stomach, but I haven't drank any. I am still drinking only water and a few times I have drank 2% milk. Well, I need a nap! I hope all my friends are doing well! I will be back soon.

TGIF! The weekend is finally here! Well, I have decided to make this week my week "off" instead of next week. There are a few reasons for this: 1- I ate the chocolate on monday and then I also ate something sweet on 2 other days also. 2-DH and I had company one day and then traveled on another.  3- I have been depressed about TTC. I have been much better this week though compared to the last time I took time off the diet. Last time I really ate a lot of sweets everyday and was drinking colas everyday. This time I am still only drinking water, except when we were traveling- I drink 2 cups of hot tea. Even though I have eaten some sweets this time, it has been in moderation and not everyday. I will probably be over 300 when I weigh monday, but I will lose it again next week! I don't know if this is just a coincedence (sp?), but once I decided to take my break this week, I finally started seeing signs of O'ing so I think it was a good decision. If I don't get pregnant this week then I think I will take another week off when I will be expecting O to happen. So, that's what's going on with me this week. I will still come on here through the weekend and then It's back on track on monday!

Well, I am so ashamed of myself. I got depressed last night and totally blew my diet. I had some chocloate candy in my house for about 2 weeks now that has been tempting me. All it took was a weak moment and a bit of depression to get me to eat it. I guess it could have been worse. If there was a cake in my house I probably would have eaten the whole thing. So I guess 3.5oz of chocolate is better than that. Anyway, on to another day...........

Monday's menu:     Calories = 2616   Carbs = 132

Breakfast: Peanut butter sandwich and low carb yogurt smoothie

Snack: 1 low carb coconut cookie (yuck) and 1 Pria carb select chocolate mocha bar (Yummy)

Lunch: Sandwich with lunchmeat and 1/2 cup chickpea salad

Snack: Turkey roll-ups made with 6 thin slices of turkey, about 2 tablespoons whipped cream cheese and 5 pickle slices, chopped

Dinner: 3 very small chicken leg & thigh quarters and a large vegetable salad with 3 tablespoons red wine vinegrette dressing

Dessert: 3.5oz chocolate and 1.5 cups 2% milk

Water: 11 cups

Exercise: None

Meds: Metformin & prenatal vitamin

Well another week is over! I am pretty satisfied with my results. I only lost 1.5 pounds, but I did TOTALLY pig out on Monday night and Tuesday morning and afternoon. I am now below 300 pounds and that makes me very happy! So I will take the 1.5 loss!!! I am kinda sad though because I don't think I am going to get pregnant this month. It doesn't look like the clomid worked on me. I don't understand why because it worked last year and now I am in better shape, eating much better and losing weight. You would think it would work now if it did then. I have an appointment with my OB next month so, if I'm notpregnant by then and the meds still aren't working, then I will have to talk to her about it I guess.

Sunday's menu:     Calories = 1556   Carbs = 45

Breakfast: Omelet made with 2 eggs, 1 beef sausage link, onion & garlic and 1 sliced tomato

Snack: 31 Q-Smart crisps

Lunch: 1 can Carb Focus southwest chicken soup

Dinner: 2 turkey burgers with 1/4 cup mozzarella cheese and 1 tablespoon spicy mustard, 1 tomato and 1/2 cup chickpea salad

Late night snack: 22 roasted almonds

Water: 10cups

Exercise: None

Meds: Metformin & prenatal vitamin