Wow,

have I been gone forever or what? I have been bad so I guess I didn't really want to enter my food journal.....so I just stayed away! I had a bad day yesterday and I am still not happy about it. I went to my new OB and she made comments like "It would be good if you could lose some weight before getting pregnant" and "I'm not in a hurry for you to get pregnant because of that". OK, we started TTC 2 years ago. I waited a year since I got pregnant the 1st time, 9 months since I misscarried the 2nd twin. How long does she think I have? I am not getting any younger and because of the PCOS, my chances are already lowered. I don't need age to lower my chances anymore! I am so pissed!!! I don't know what I am going to do. She did increase my metformin, which I am to increase slowly for the next month and a half. I was taking 500mg a day. she has me taking 500mg/2 times a day until this bottle is gone (about 11 more days) and then increasing to 500mg/3times a day on my next bottle. I already took clomid this month. I will need another prescription for it, if I don't get pregnant this time. What I think I will do is : if I don't get pregnant this month then I will continue with the meds for the next 2 months and try to lose as much weight as possible. After that, I will call and ask for the refill. I am hoping to lose at least 30 pounds in the 2 months. I know that is expecting a lot but I have been off my diet for a month now (only gained 2-3 pounds back) and I think I will lose a large amount the 1st week again. Last time I went off and then got back on, I lost 10 pounds the 1st week and 5 the next....that's half my goal just in 2 weeks, then I still have 6 weeks to lose another 15 pounds. I think it is possible. Now all I need to do is get my motivation pumped up enough to follow through. I feel cravings for sweets everyday now, so that is my biggest challenge. I'm not going to post my food diary until monday, that's my official "start" day!